Its final. I will not be moving home before
Christmas. I feel very disappointed by
this news as my house moving saga has been ongoing all year. Additionally it feels like an age has passed
since I accepted the offer on my home.
Most of all I would love to have started 2015 settled in and ready to
live my new lifestyle in the centre of Bristol.
My buyers told me a couple of weeks
ago that they didn’t want to move before Christmas as they didn’t want to
disrupt their two young children. The
selfish part of me still feels that the move could happened if we all got our
fingers out and pushed the solicitors along.
However, as my estate agent pointed out that ‘some moves get postponed
or cancelled due to people taking holiday, dental appointments, minor illnesses
etc. Kids wanting to be able to open
their presents at their own home isn’t such a bad thing!’ Humbug! Ha! ha!
The reality is that if the move was
to go ahead before Christmas I would probably have gone into blind panic
finishing off in total meltdown. Trying
to move house whilst having Christmas to sort and being really busy working it
was very unlikely that the move would have happened.
There is still so much to do in
terms of sorting and packing. Now I can use
the Christmas break to complete it. In
fact I have just emptied the contents of the attic into Georgina’s vacated
room. Oh my goodness! There is so much family treasures to sift
through over the coming weeks.
So all in all the reality is that
the delays are working out for the best.
Well at least I hope so.
Georgina has recently moved out to
her own home. Matt and Georgina have settled
very well in their new home in Emersons Green, Bristol. This represents a great end of year after
what has been a difficult period for both of them.
Overall I am feeling really good at
the moment. My work life has really
taken off which takes away the worry about putting food on the table and all
that. I do have to address how I reach
the correct balance in my life. Not sure
I want to go back to that constant workaholic state that I use find myself. If I have learned anything from the tragic experiences
of the past 4 years its that I need to live for the moment and to value those closest
to me – NOW! Carpe diem!
Christmas is now well and truly
upon us. From the moment Caroline was
diagnosed back in early 2011 Christmas was something I came to dread. At the time I didn’t know whether that we had
just unknowingly experienced our last Christmas together (ie 2010) or that the
next one was our last. Fortunately we
were able to have one more Christmas together and actually we had some hope. Following Caroline’s passing the thought of
her not being for future ones was just too much to bear.
This year I have decided that I
will find it in me to enjoy Christmas. I
still miss Caroline more than words could describe and holding the feeling of
resentment that she has been taken from us.
I am not sure I will ever get over the massive void. However, as time progresses I appear to be
developing various coping methods.
Mentally, I have made the adjustment that I will enjoy Christmas and
life generally. Christmas was probably
Caroline’s favourite time where she spent so much energy preparing for her
family. I want to carry forward Caroline’s
spirit and legacy which means so much to me.
As I have said on many occasions Caroline’s memory will live on as long
as I draw breath.
The build up to Christmas has been
mad. Amazon has taken the brunt of my
shopping exploits. Online is the way
forward for sure. I have been invited to
my clients Christmas parties. The family
Christmas Dinner has been booked at Browns in Clifton which is walking distance
from my new place. Pity I won’t be
living there. Never mind! A family
lunch is booked for Boxing Day at the Failand Inn. The day after the kids and me are off on
holiday with Cher and Rich for New Year in Spain. Not too bad
The map of the road is becoming
much clearer now. I’m sure that there
will be a few bumps and blind corners at some point. However, the bus is rolling along and its
nearly Christmas. We’re now feeling good
about ourselves.
