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| Joe paddling out of Lock Keeper Christmas Eve 2013 |
There’s definitely been an upswing
in mood in the past few weeks. In previous
weeks the mood had been numb and indifferent. Now my mood is much lighter and
actually I enjoyed Christmas. There is no doubt that Caroline was missed especially
as she absolutely loved Christmas. However, Caroline will always have a lasting
influence over us. For example the kids and I could never imagine eating
someone else’s Christmas pudding.
Georgina jokingly said “we would be struck down if we did”.
We all enjoyed Christmas. The build-up was ok although I will never
enjoy Christmas shopping; Georgina, “assisted” by Joe did a great job decorating
the house; all the presents were bought and wrapped although I have managed to
lose two of them; we had to leave the Lockeeper Inn early on Christmas Eve to
rescue our cars from flooding; Christmas lunch around the Badminton Arms was
good. This year‘s Christmas was definitely
not up to Caroline organisational excellence and quality but the main point is
we did it. The kids and I have our own
sense of achievement and Caroline wold be proud of us.
The upswing has been brought about
by the positive steps we as a family have been taking: dealing with Christmas, putting the house up
for sale, meeting new people and doing new activities have all
contributed. There now is a feeling of
acceptance that life will now be different and that actually we are allowed to
enjoy ourselves. I have been given a lot
of thought of t what the future may look like.
As someone on Facebook told me “onwards and upwards”. Various parts of my life are starting to fit into
place although some parts are more mature than others.
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| New Year's Eve 2006-7 |
There is still lots to look forward
to over the rest of the festive period.
Time to visit friends and family.
It will be great to see my brother Andrew and my nephew Harry who are
flying down from Scotland. Then we’re
off for some winter sun over the New Year in Gran Canaria with Cher, Rich and
Matt. In fact someone asked me if
Georgina and Joe were going. Without
thinking I answered
“Yes the kids are coming with
me. And the boyfriend”.
Instantly I realised that this
statement required clarification “I haven’t got a boyfriend. I meant Georgina’s boyfriend [Matt] will be
coming with us”. I still got a strange
look.
So a relaxing time for all of
us. I will use the time to work out the
next steps of my journey. I have the
feeling the steps are getting longer in length.
Just leaves me to say is “Merry Christmas
and Happy 2014” to all of you. Thank you
for your inspirational support
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