Thursday, 24 April 2014

Don't Stop Me Now

That’s it!  I am now officially over 50.  I can have no complaint about my first week as a fifty year old.  I have been out every night since turning the big five-o.  In fact I spent three nights leading up to the big day celebrating “not being 50”.  I am just happy to be home in front of the TV for a quiet night in.  Well for now! 

I have met up with so many friends from yesteryear.  I had a great night out in Cardiff and was overwhelmed by the number of the people who had made the effort to join me to celebrate notably Andy Williams who joined us straight from stepping of a flight from Zurich.  Most of the revellers were people who I had spent 18 years of my working career with building a fantastic business.  More than that though these people have become part of an extended family.  Just shows that “people make businesses”.

Some people unfortunately couldn’t make the evening as they were in far flung corners of the world but still had bothered to send their best wishes.  Dave in Bucharest, Jane in Florida and Matt in UAE you won’t get away with it that easy.  See you when you return to the UK.
The night was a very late one and I certainly won’t be going into detail here about some of the shenanigans.  Need to protect the innocent and the not so innocent.  Just to say there was a lot of drinking and a lot of laughter.  Good luck to all of you and thanks for joining me.  Really special

The Bristol night was a different kind of event but with the same outcomes.  Just great to see family and friends who have supported my family forever.  Seeing people who I have grown up with since the time I had brown hair and good looks – both, its fair to say. Disappeared some time ago.  Just such a great time again.  We ended up in the Rainbow Casino where a number of us through good fortune were up on the night.  Joe had an exceptional win at 35 to 1 win on the roulette wheel.  Thanks to you all.  We have been shoulder to shoulder for a long time.  We have had some amazing times together and I couldn’t have got through the dark days without you.

Brothers Andrew and Wayne, Janet and Bethany see you soon!

The big day itself started off brilliantly.  Not only did Georgina bring me a cup of tea in bed, she showed me such an amazing video that her and Joe had compiled  Dads 50th Birthday video
Couldn’t let the day go by without paying a visit to the one who made me who I am today.  I laid flowers at the cemetery and spent a few quiet minutes peacefully remembering the great times I had with Caroline and how excited she would have been today.  Had lunch with my ladies from the St Peter Hospice group.  Again just good to see how well they have progressed over the past couple of years 

The celebrations in the evening were just so funny.  Amazing what can be done with a set of false eyebrows and moustache and a stuffed toy Yorkshire terrier.

The past week or so has been amazing and very uplifting.  So thanks to everyone.  Great to see so many people getting on with their lives.  Special thanks to mum and dad for all the sacrifices they have made for my brothers and me over the years


I dreaded turning 50 for many reasons.  The first week has been great and I haven’t received by Saga brochure yet.  So far so good!  I now look to the future and wonder what that might bring.  So much to do.  A few more trips booked up including Paris in May.  Then there is the Bristol 10k run.  See my brother Andrew and by nephew Harry some time in the summer up there in Aberdeen (hope it’s not part of a foreign country by then)!  Guess the next 50 years are going to be like everything else in life:  what you make it!

Sunday, 6 April 2014

A Day In The Life

No matter how well things are going when those life events come up the old sub conscious takes over.  There’s nothing I can do about it.  My whole mood just takes a dive.  I know I will be alright afterwards but it is very emotionally draining.  With the big “5 0” looming I just can’t help thinking what might have been.
50 was going to be the turning point for Caroline and me.  Both kids would have been settled at Uni, I was going to take a lesser job to spend more time with Caroline (in fact my current role would have been perfect); and we were going to enjoy the fruits of our hard earned labour.
Even just a few years ago I never envisage the situation I find myself in.  Just 10 years ago I look back to when I became 40:  big surprise 70's fancy dress party (one of the best nights ever); 40th Birthday in Las Vegas; best man on my 40th Birthday to Neil who married Lucy in the Grand Canyon.  It just doesn’t get much better.  10 years later life has changed out of all recognition.
In addition some major parts of my life aren’t moving as quickly as I want nor in the direction I want.   It feels as though every day I am putting a lot of effort in to moving forward but at the moment it feels as though the wheels are just spinning. 
Am I trying to move too quickly?  Doing too much?  Trying to please too many people?  I don’t know.  Perhaps this is my life going forward.  Maybe I’m having a mid-life crisis –what another one?.  Who knows?  I know from previous similar experiences that I need to take it easy for the next week and let the emotion wash over me.   I am going to use the time to take stock of where I am.  I need to bring things back into my own control.
Am I getting the best out of my job?  Could it be better and more rewarding?  Shall I move on the path of world domination?  Am I just too busy to start a relationship?   Could I do more to sell the house?  Is the market growing quickly enough?  My biggest problem is I am too impatient.  For the next week though I will just have to go with the flow.  Look forward to my birthday celebrations.  Not get too stress.  I will also find some time to look back at the great memories of my time with Caroline.


I am determined though that I will enjoy the 50th celebrations with my friends and family who have supported me not only over the past three and half years but throughout my life.  I am not worried by being the age 50.  Its the new 40 which is the new black.
The official launch of my 50th celebrations started last weekend in Dublin. A great weekend with Pete, Louise and Phil who I have known since I was 15 when we started to play football together (not Louise).  I met Phil’s new wife, Sara, for the first time.  Lots of memorable moments including being at Landsdowne Road for the Leinster v Munster match.  Plenty of Guinness as you would expect.  The one thing that really stood out was that one of our party got dis-orientated on their way to the loo at 5am after a very late and drunken evening.  Instead of ending up in the toilet found themself locked out of the room standing the hotel corridor – NAKED.  The person in question had to be rescued by security.  Obviously, the person will remain nameless as what goes on tour stays on tour.  All I can say I can’t wait to meet the person for the second time
Celebrations now move on to Cardiff and Bristol over the next weekend:
11th – Cardiff
·         Meet at 7:30pm at the Park Plaza
·         Later Tiger Tiger
·         Enjoy
·         Bish Bash Bosh – Jobs a good un
12th - Bristol
·         Meet at around 7:30pm at The Piano & Pitcher
·         9:30pm Rainbow Casino
·         10pm Meal at Rainbow Casino
·         Enjoy
·         Bish Bash Bosh – the jobs a good un
I have purchased 22 Groupon Tickets for the Rainbow Casino, Bristol: two course meal, a drink and £5 of chips all for the princely sum of £10 each.  Dinner is booked at 10pm which is late but after a few drinks you will be glad of it.  Please let me know if you would like one of these vouchers – first come first served.
13th – Home
·         The recovery position
14th  - The Big Day
·         Open house from 5:30pm until late – All welcome
On the whole life is moving on but these big events will always bring flooding back all those memories, our hopes and dreams.  The lesson is live your life now and don’t wait for tomorrow.