Spice Up Your Life

I felt as though I was signing my life away.  I felt nervous.  All I could think was “why am I doing this?”  What was I letting myself in for?  I even thought about walking out.  In fact all I was doing was joining a social club called Spice for £10 per month.  All the people at the introduction night were very pleasant, interesting and supportive.  As I said before Spice appeals to a whole cross-section of people with 650 members in the Bristol and Cardiff area.  The range of activities is quite phenomenal, nationally based and there are even options to have weekends away and range of different types of holidays like skiing, Grand Canyon rafting etc.  So what is there not to enjoy?  I guess my anxiety derives from the fact this is the first step to changing my direction.  www.spice.co.uk

So the new start is underway and actually I am quite relieved to have signed up with Spice.  It will provide the opportunity to meet new people and do things I would never have normally considered.  Additionally, I am starting to pull other plans together that affect our home.  The house has been valued and now I am mulling over when the best time to put it into the market.  Ironically the Estate Agent only had one comment.  There was one room that should be tidied before people are shown around.  Not the kid’s rooms.  No my study – it is a bit a pit!

Next weekend I will start the downsizing the amount of stuff we’ve got.  I have talked about doing this on many occasions but the prospect has been daunting and I’ve put it off.  I did ask Joe to have ago once.  I even incentivised him.  What happened?  Hardly anything got sold and I gained a small girl’s bike from Harry’s (his mate) neighbour house “because I can make some money on it”.  Not quite the idea I had in mind.

The big step will be dealing with Caroline’s clothes which are still in the wardrobes.  Its bite the bullet time.  It will definitely be emotional.   I will ask Caroline’s friends and family if they would like anything in her memory.  Anything remaining will be given to the very worthy cause St Peter’s Hospice.  I’m sure there will be some deep intakes of breath and a few tears when packing this up.

I have been inching along the road for the past 15 months.  My strides are now become greater with a bit more bounce.  I’m not out of the woods yet.  However, the journey is gathering pace and direction.  New start.  New beginning.  But never forgetting the past.