Monday, 25 March 2013

Roll With It


For the moment at least I feel at ease with the world.  Don’t get me wrong I’m still living a very strange and alien existence, which at times is very difficult to come to terms with.  However, I have an aura of calmness, which in itself is strange.   I’m trying to push me and the kids forward and am prepared to accept that some days we will take a step back.
Paul Cheesely Bristol City "Hero" (on the right!)
Keeping busy and looking forward to future events is a huge help.  Working freelance is keeping me busy and I am really enjoying the diversity of the job.  Not sure if I’m being that productive or just being a “busy fool”.   Nonetheless it’s given me a focus, a chance to meet new people and help people develop their businesses.  In fact working in the small and medium enterprise sector is like being in “middle earth” with many wonderful people and “communities”.  I have to sat I haven’t met the Hobbit yet!
Additionally, I have my British Lions tour of Australia with Tony.  I think I may have mentioned my trip to Australia one or two dozen times.  This will be a holiday of a lifetime and I cannot wait to get on the aeroplane.  Also booked to go to Gran Canaria with the kids, Rich and Cher for the New Year.
Then there are the three bike charity rides to organize which allows me to give something back to St Peters Hospice.  The first of the rides is Cardiff to Bristol on 13th April.  Quite a number of people have volunteered to ride plus supporters to see us off in Cardiff and a welcoming reception in Bristol.  In the evening we will follow up with a night of Karaoke at Shanghai Knights, Nelson Street to celebrate my birthday the following day.  Everyone is welcomed just let me know and I will give you the details.
At the end of May Neil and I will be completing a stage of the Tour De France:  Cambridge to London.  It must be the flattest stage ever.  In fairness we are then riding from London to Bristol the following day.  Again anyone who wants to join just let me know.  Finally, my brother Andrew and I will be riding across the Outer Hebrides as you do!
So there is plenty to look forward to and fun to be had.  I can’t help but wonder, with some sadness, what might have been and what we would be doing if life had been kinder.  What I do know is that Caroline would want us all to get on with our lives and I cant help but think that she is still marshalling us now.
So yeah I am at ease for the time being and will enjoy the feeling for as long as I can.  You never know when the switch will flick the other way.

The Watson Meal Planner wc 25th March 2013


Wc 25th March 2013
Monday
Turkey drummers, pasta, peas
Dad out
Tuesday
Pasta bolognese
Wednesday
Chicken fajitas
Thursday
Gammon steak, chips, egg, peas
Friday
Salmon, new potatoes, broccoli, peas
Saturday
TBD
Sunday
TBD

Monday, 18 March 2013

The Watson Meal Planner 18th March


Wc 18th March 2013
Monday
Omelette, chips and peas
Tuesday
Haddock, new potatoes, carrots, peas
Wednesday
Congrats to Wales on winning Six Nations
Chicken Tikka wraps
Thursday
Pasta bolognese
Friday
Jambalaya 
Saturday
TBD
Sunday
TBD

When the kids are united


After a rocky few months the kids are starting to find their feet and set themselves some goals for the future.
Following Georgina’s shock announcement at the start of the year that she was finishing Chemistry her self-confidence has grown enormously.  Georgina has really grasped the nettle about finding a job to fund her gap period to next September.
One of her inspirations came from her first visit to the Job Centre.  When Georgina returned she commented
“Dad it’s a bit demeaning”
“Well more of an incentive to get a job quickly”
In fairness to the Job Centre they have treated her well and gave some useful advice.  Georgina responded really well.  She uploaded her CV on to the job centers web page and just clicked the button to submit her application for almost every suitable job.  Well over 50 job applications.  Not many responses.  But she kept going.
The irony of the whole story is that she has now got a job - at Primark.  The same Primark she had worked just a few months ago.  I have seen Georgina grow in self-confidence over the past six months and this new episode has developed this newly found self-confidence.
Anyone who has known Georgina through her life see her as an enigma.  A very intelligent and beautiful looking girl but lacked any real self-confidence.  Little “self doubt” demons would set up camp in her head.  By applying for jobs and attending interviews she has overcome these demons.  In the case of Primark she walked in, asked to speak to HR and asked if they had any jobs!  A few days later they contacted her and have given a job in the “shoe department”.  You cannot believe what a big step this is for Georgina.  Massive! 
Just when you’re thinking that Georgina has made a step change along comes yet another surprise.  An even bigger one!  The one thing I didn’t think she would come to terms with is the thought of presenting to a group.  We all know how terrifying this is to experienced people let alone a young person.  Not many of us our naturals.   
Even though she had worked at Primark for three years Georgina had to go through the new employee induction process.  When she came home from induction on Friday she found me and said
“Guess what I did today dad?”
“No idea darling”
“I presented the health and safety to do with working on the tills session to the group”
I was stunned!  For a second I was speechless.  I then just hugged her.  I honestly thought she would never present to anyone.  The demons were just too deep rooted in her head.  You could have blown me over
“Wow!  You did what? How do you feel?”
“Ok!  I was vey nervous but thought well I could sit here and cry or give it a go”
Unbelievable.  I cannot tell you how proud I was of her.  I know how difficult this must have been for Georgina.  Caroline and I would agonise over how we could deal with this for years.  Well we can honestly say now she is along the road.  The first step is always the biggest.
Joe has been moving along at his pace.  I was a bit concerned after attending the schools parents evening.  Concerns about Joe being behind on coursework.  Although once submitted his work is of a high standard.  So you can imagine afterwards we have had a few words about “getting motivated”, “showing some urgency”, “letting the teacher down”.  You know me on and on!
So last Monday when we embarked on the long journey to Falmouth University for Joe’s placement interview I was trying to restrain myself from nagging him.  I did well until we come out of Exeter Services on the M5.
“Right come on Joe.  You got to get your act together. Have you thought of the questions that they might ask?”
“Don’t worry about it Dad.  I will be alright”
“Ok Joe.  Don’t forget this is important”
I couldn’t nag him anymore.  I didn’t want to build the pressure too much. Well its down to him now I thought.
Falmouth University is a very modern University campus, excellent facilities and all the kit needed to fulfill the Film course.  The lecturers made it clear that they take on the “person” not necessarily the “academic” and that the interview was an extremely important part of the process.   Joe was first on!  I went for coffee.
Twenty minutes later I received a text “I’ve finished”
He looked a little flushed around his cheeks.
“How did it go?”
“Alright”
“Great what did you discuss?
“I discussed with the lecturer diversity in films especially the role of the disabled!”
“Oh!  Anything else?”
“I told her I had started a foreign film club in the sixth form.  We have watched 20 foreign films.  So we discussed some of them”
Like every Dad I hoped that these foreign films weren’t the Swedish type!
“Oh!  You’ve done what?  Wow! Did you talk about Tarantino?
“Yes.  We talked about my project on him”
“Wow!  Well done.  Sounds like it went really well”
“Yeah”
I looked at him.  He’s already 6 feet three inches.  He was pleased with himself and was walking as though he was 8 feet tall.  I was really proud of him.  All my concerns about him disappeared for a moment.  Where did all this knowledge come from?  Had I gone into the wrong room? Clearly not.  I guess that Joe communicates to me on a “need to know basis”
Georgina and Joe are both making progress despite as difficult a period as any young person could have had.  They both have a big year in front of them but at least we are now moving in the right direction.  Undoubtedly there is some spiritual guidance coming from somewhere to succeed and to do the right thing.  Keep going kids!

Monday, 11 March 2013

Mothers Day


Only a short passage today as it was difficult to write.  The family and poignant occasions in the calendar are massive tests of your resolve.  Mothers Day is yet another one.  Once again it highlight the fact that there is such a gap in my family.  You can’t help but reflect on all those Mothers Days of the past.  Caroline would ensure cards, flowers, presents were bought and then tell me to book a table at the local pub or restaurant just to make me feel involved.  You get the picture! This was so typical of her.  She made sure everyone was catered for.  If there was anyone who deserved to be spoilt it was Caroline.
Mothers Day this year, the first since her passing, was very difficult to deal with.  Days like these just raise your emotional sensory system to new levels.  I am now becoming aware of these feelings so can now start preparing myself in the future.   Mothers Day for my children though raises all different perspectives.
When all around them are treating their mother how do your children feel when their mother is no longer with them?  No longer there to give a big hug.  What do you say to them? The whole scenario is just totally unimaginable.  Only people who have gone through this can even close to counsel you.  Even then every grieving process is individual and unique to the person. 
Mothers Day will still continue in the future, as I want to treat my own mother.  My mum deserves it.  She’s had a tough time recently and is recovering from an operation from just a few weeks ago. I did the good son bit:  gave her a card and some flowers; cooked a roast beef lunch (Jamie Oliver: Brisket with delicious gravy ) which was lovely even if I say so myself. 
So we got through another major occasion.  I’m sure it’s making us all stronger but that’s not to say it’s any easier.  I keep being told that time is a great healer.  I just hope they’re right.  We will see.  

Sunday, 10 March 2013

The Watson Meal Planner wc 11th March


Wc 11th March 2013
Monday
Happy Birthday Dave on Thursday
Beef, peas, mash potato, carrots
Tuesday
Omelette, chips and peas
Turkey drummers, pasta, beans
Wednesday
Spaghetti Bolognese
Thursday
Peri peri chicken, chips and salads
Friday
Haddock, new potatoes, peas, broccoli
Saturday
TBD
Sunday
TBD

Monday, 4 March 2013

The Watson Meal Planner wc 4th March


Wc 4th March 2013
Monday
Pasta Bolagnese
Tuesday
Chicken FajitasDad Out
Wednesday
Dad:  Chicken & Chorizo Quadrotti with
Joe:  Levi roots Chicken Wings
Thursday
Steak and Guinness casserole
Friday
Joe:  Turkey drummers, pasta, peas
Dad Out
Saturday
TBD
Sunday
Mothering Sunday

Right On Time


Daily life flies by so quickly.  Before you realize its Friday again and you’re asking yourself “where has the week gone?”  It doesn’t seem that long ago we were celebrating the New Year and now its March.  In many ways for me that is a good thing.  By being busy doesn’t allow me to overly dwell on the past.  It’s having some quality time that is bothering me.   Life as a single parent is very different.  It has taken me a long time to adjust.  In fact it took the frantic Christmas period before it even dawned on me that I had reached a new status: single parent.
Now all I can hear are those phrases that Caroline would constantly use and I would let go over the top of my head thinking “whatever!”:
“I just don’t seem to stop”
“I am on the go all the time”.
“…this is a big house to run”
Back in the day all I had to worry about was going to work!  Trying to deal with what life throws at you on a daily basis is difficult enough when you’re a couple.  Now having to combine the domestic duties and balance a job is manic.  As a single parent I am flying by the seat of my pants.  Making it up as I go!
My car has become the office.  I’m just in my car so much.  So many people have commented “Paul are you ringing me from your car again?”  I’m always seem to be traveling to meetings, to the shops or picking Joe up.  When I eventually arrive somewhere I am scrambling on to my phone or laptop to find broadband access to catch up on emails and book the appointments I made whilst driving into the diary.  The real stress though comes when you eventually get home.
As soon as you step through that front door you’re on the household chore treadmill.  The oven, the washing machine, and the hoover are now my new best friends.  TV is now just background noise.    That laundry basket seems to magically fill up overnight.  I am now a proficient user of the washing machine: “programme 4”, put the washing liquid into the machine, press the “start” button, 57 minutes and off you go. 
Then I have to feed my hungry chicks.  As regular as clockwork at 5pm every evening they will appear chirping their hearts out waiting to be fed.  Just as well you’ve popped into the supermarket on the way home to do a “quick shop” for food for their tea.  Sixty quid later you’re wondering what you spent your money on after all you did a “big shop” over the weekend and spent £100.   Before you know it you’ve raided the freezer popped the food into the oven, served it to the chirping chicks that once they have eaten fly off and your now washing up.  What is this all about?
I’m lucky.  My children are 20 and 17.  The biggest use of my time at the moment is taking Joe to have around various Universities.  How a single parent copes when the kids are younger I just don’t know.  Taking them and fetching them from school, extra curriculum activity, school holidays etc etc.  Wow!
All this leaves very little quality time for yourself: get up, work, cook, go to bed; get up, work, cook, go to bed; get up…  You get the picture.
I have tried to do things to minmise the running about and manage my time a bit better, which has had some impact.  I have tried to utilize my own skills and new technology to make life easier:
·      Do the weekly shop online.  I use Sainsburys online which is easy to use but obviously there are others
·      I plan my meals a week in advance, which prevents me panicking everyday thinking about what’s for tea allowing you to schedule your meals.  Otherwise I am convinced we would be eating fish fingers and chips every night.  I’ve also started posting the meal planner online, much to the amusement of my kids and their mates.  A major benefit of doing so is that you won’t have the kids calling you everyday asking “whats for tea?”.

·      I have outsourced some of the household chores.  I am very fortunate to have inherited a fantastic “Ironing Lady”.  I drop scruffily folded clothes in an Ikea bag off one day and pick up crisply ironed clothes the next.  Magic!  It would take me hours and hours to iron clothes every week and the quality would not be anywhere near as good.  The best value for money for me bar none.
·      I do also treat myself each week.  Two cleaners come in every Tuesday to do a thorough surface clean.  Mop and vacuum the floors, dusting, clean the bathrooms etc.  Its brilliant.  Ironically, the kids and me are tidying the house on Monday nights to make it look nice for when the cleaners come around on Tuesday!  http://www.welcomehomecleaning.co.uk
I know that I haven’t cracked this time management conundrum yet and need to find a rhythm that works for my family.  I will keep trying.  Georgina being home has been a big help.  The next step is to train Joe to cook.  Well if I can do it anyone can J)