Mothers Day

Only a short passage today as it was difficult to write.  The family and poignant occasions in the calendar are massive tests of your resolve.  Mothers Day is yet another one.  Once again it highlight the fact that there is such a gap in my family.  You can’t help but reflect on all those Mothers Days of the past.  Caroline would ensure cards, flowers, presents were bought and then tell me to book a table at the local pub or restaurant just to make me feel involved.  You get the picture! This was so typical of her.  She made sure everyone was catered for.  If there was anyone who deserved to be spoilt it was Caroline.

Mothers Day this year, the first since her passing, was very difficult to deal with.  Days like these just raise your emotional sensory system to new levels.  I am now becoming aware of these feelings so can now start preparing myself in the future.   Mothers Day for my children though raises all different perspectives.

When all around them are treating their mother how do your children feel when their mother is no longer with them?  No longer there to give a big hug.  What do you say to them? The whole scenario is just totally unimaginable.  Only people who have gone through this can even close to counsel you.  Even then every grieving process is individual and unique to the person. 

Mothers Day will still continue in the future, as I want to treat my own mother.  My mum deserves it.  She’s had a tough time recently and is recovering from an operation from just a few weeks ago. I did the good son bit:  gave her a card and some flowers; cooked a roast beef lunch (Jamie Oliver: Brisket with delicious gravy ) which was lovely even if I say so myself. 

So we got through another major occasion.  I’m sure it’s making us all stronger but that’s not to say it’s any easier.  I keep being told that time is a great healer.  I just hope they’re right.  We will see.