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| Watsons in Gran Canaria |
15th January 2014 will always be a date etched
in my mind. A turning point. I will always reflect upon this date as the
first day in three years that I have felt a real inner calm. Nothing spectacular happened. Good day at work, a good chat to Matt on the
phone and not a lot more. It just dawned on me driving home how good I felt about myself. I felt I was in the “flow”. Life was moving on and my actions felt
natural. The fact that the kids seemed
to be settled in what they’re doing is a huge lift. Not only did the Watsons get through
Christmas and New Year, we actually enjoyed it! Especially the week we had in Gran Canaria in
the sunshine. I now feel ready for
anything and know the direction I want to move in. I have got a good feeling about 2014.
I have spent a long time taking stock of our situation,
laying foundations for our future and reflecting on what we had. Now its time to live our lives and take life
back into our own hands. Its time to
make things happen for us and even for those around us.
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| The last photo of Caroline before illness struck: Dec 2010 |
With the kids returning to Uni I was expecting a quiet
time at home to contemplate my next move.
Well that was short lived. Within
a week of going to Falmouth Joe has returned home for the next three weeks. The vagaries of University life I’m told! Whereas Georgina has returned to Cardiff for a
week and has to take exams. However,
once Georgina has taken the exams then she’s home for three weeks. Not bad is it! Actually I’m really pleased they are
home. Love that noise around the house
and Georgina telling me to turn my music down.
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| Mexico Nov 2011 |
For too long now I have been ploughing a lone furrow
both in my personal and work lives. Now
is the time for change. I have got my
mojo back and am feeling really positive about the future. I have unshackled the feelings of guilt and
sorrow that burdened me for the past 18 months.
I take so much strength out of surviving such a traumatic time; how I
cared and could do no more for Caroline in her final months; how I have responded
to the challenges put before me. I’m
feeling good about myself. Most of all I
will always have the great memories of my life with the best person anyone could
have met. I was just the lucky one who had the chance to marry Caroline and share her life.
I know what Caroline wants me to do.
Now I’m going to do it.
There’s so much to do and see. However, I cannot do it on my own. Life will change. I need to re-write the next chapter of the
book of life. One thing for sure the
direction of my journey is about to take a right angle turn. Here we go!
Difficulties are just things to overcome. Ernest Shackleton
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